Fairy Wings

Is sooo hot.... i can't bear it, i actually feel like my skin is melting...well at least i have a paddling pool, yeaterday i dived in it with all my cloths, after cyling home its the best way to relax.

So am home alone well i have my bro, as my parents have gone to spain...i have never been in charge and to be honest i don't like it, i am so much cleaner then i thought i was and i am always thinking, what are i going to coom tomorrow so i can defrost it tonight...i have become a mother!!!

At least its a friday and 6 hours from now i get to go to daves and sleep...i am so tired! it didn't help that this morning i woke up with a massive noes bleed coveing my pillow!

And its Harry potter tonight!!!!!Yey...am actually getting a book at midnight!!!!the madness and fun

Oh and all who read this please pray for Dave he is doing a talk at his church and is nervouse, he needs pease and confidence...he's got great vies but he's never talked in a church so this will hopefully help hom grow and build him taking him where God want him!

I know its been long....but i kinda forgot i have a blog...though i don't know why...

Anyway, its the summer, well sot of...me and dave have bought a paddling pool...but a big one...well bigish, anyway its so cool we sit in the poor reading..and i believe i am getting browner!!!!

Dave nopw has a job...thank God! it was tought times for a while as we were broke and life very dipressing, now i am still broke but dave has some money .... i haven't got a car yet at the momnt its not diceided yet though anytime soon i will find out.

I have been quite glum latly, and i don't know why, i have suffrerd from depression for a while now and its tough but i think i am getting better, its scary though, cause out of nowhere suddenly you get the feelingof being so alone and sad and just want to close your eyes and make eveything you feel go away.

I hate not having control of my emotions, but God is God and has provided helpful people around me.... thats sa rear i know and i feel i have lost tough with the people once i cared dearly, but maybe that is part of life, i think about them often, like Joce an Jen, liz, Charis and Anne, Tufnell and Jude, i alway think of jude, maybe beacause she has been one of the best friends i have had....

Most of them have finished, uni and now have to face the harsh wold of jobs, i wonder how they will do

Today is mine and Dave 1 yaer 6 months...now for some pleaole they may think that this a long time but for me it feels so short! I have so much fin with him and he is so my best friend..of ourse after Jude!... and well i love him

Sorry but don't mean to be soppy but being in love more then once before i now know what it is to find somone that fits so perfectly and that you never want to let go....not till your old

So Dave baby, happy day! love you lots!

Right...i have been sick on and off for 2 months now and yesterday i was in great pain...went to doctors and they think it may be a golled stone...i think that is how you spell it. Amyway i have no idea what it means so any help would be lovely but i know they have to scan it and see how it is...

My mum says she hopes the stones are dimonds...well i doubt it but how cool wopuld that be... so sorry but not in a very up beat mood but will leave you with the lovely thought that today if a Friday...meaning eviction in Big Brother and me to have a nice relaxing weekend...with stones stuck in me!

MY BROTHER IS ENGAGED!!!!

Yeay...it happened last Friday...he is now marrying a baeutiful funky chicky called Emily...I now have a new sister!!!!

Well that is all the news i need to share so Sam and Emily well done! YOu guys are perfect togther