Lately I have been having this dream...well several all about a certain ex...its strange cause I haven't spoken to him in a year and its not that we are not friends just that we are rubbish in keeping in contact...the thing is that I was with him so long ago...school time....and it was on and off 3 years but somehow I seem to be thinking about my school time. In my dreams I am still 16 and he is still at school with me...but I am always very nervous around him and when I wake up I try really hard to go back to sleep cause I don't want that nice safe feeling to go away...I re play my dream and try and make it real....
Now I am a person with a big past but most of it is places in the past...apart from some issues ...but hey who doesn't have them....but with this ex I have dealt with I am friends with him and even though I have not talked in a long time I know if I see him again it will be fine....then why am I having all those dreams??? Do I want that security again? Am I stuck at 16 and long to be there?
So if anyone understands dreams any suggestion will be nice that and prayer...cause it’s always nice to receive it
I feel me and you both, my sweetness, seem stuck in these our own parralel universes, the past haunting our present. I don't know what our dreams mean, if they are anything more than memmories that just need to be posted away into the PAST peigion hole... in the post offices of our minds... oh, i thought everyone had one..sorry.
You must take great joy in the fact you have a future with him, as a freind you can choose to grow a beautiful friendship. I pray for you both, that no useless bitterness nor petty, distructive jealousy blinds either of you from the possibilties of the prescious realationship you may have.
..yes... I guess you realise where i maybe speaking from, but it's true for both our sakes. Martha, we must start to aim upwards and push our minds forwards, stop looking back in hopeless sad sentimentallity. It's good for us to keep the memmories of these people as positive, loving gifts that have happened to us in our lives. We are very lucky, though it may seem the opposite. But to hold on to these past joys will make us miss these miracles wanting to get to us now.
Martha, oh Boosum Buddy of mine eye, you hath been a good friend to me through it all (even with crazied drunken phonecalls!). As you know, I do not have many..any Christian friends here. Not that lubberly Christian peeps havenee tried to become close to me... it's madness, I am totally scared! I'm shaking in my wee Scottish bootys! As cold as an icelandic fish. All my friend know and seem to repect the fact im a Christian, we even get together and have many a latenight discussion about God, Sex and Politics. My close friend, Simon has become one of my greatest supports. Though he's, I quote "no way a Christian" he loves and repects me living for God, seeing my struggles and hearing God speaking with me through the Bible, seems to have made a real change in his oppion of Christianity... God really must work in misterious ways if He's chosen someone as messedup as me to do His teaching.
Love the website! Made me smile :0
Your B.B. xxxx